January 2011
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“For me, it’s about the simple things in life. It’s about the pleasurable...”
– Miss Roze
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I just had my heart ripped from my chest by yet another book. I don’t know how I manage to do it, but I seem to read these heart-wrenching book’s when I am in my most fragile of state’s.
I love to read, though. I love words. I love how words can work together with your imagination and create the most amazing, vivid pictures within your mind.
This particular book I finished this morning, The...
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“If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The...”
– Baz Luhrmann
Anonymous asked: I am so jealous of your boyfriend. I think you would be the most perfect girlfriend.. I know you would argue against this and talk about how messed up you are.. but I think that's what makes you so beautiful and why you would be so perfect. You know what it is to hurt.. and I think you would take care of my heart. I wish i could be with you.. I am happy you found someone though. He is very...
About to drive 3 hours to see my boyfriend.
He owes me about 50 back massages for this.
My boyfriend's tumblr background is my...
http://audiencewiththedevil.tumblr.com/
royaltyblood asked: I CAN'T HEAR IT MY SPEAKERS ARE BROKEN WHAT SONG IS IT
hermitology asked: Head in the clouds doesn't even begin to explain it.
The way my thought processes are going, it's like I have a major lack of oxygen going to my brain.
Beyond the clouds. I have my head in outer space.
The way my thought processes are going, it's like I have a major lack of oxygen going to my brain.
Beyond the clouds. I have my head in outer space.
izzyinvisible-deactivated201106 asked: You and your boyfriend are so cute. I'm glad your life is good now :)
I’m going to park myself by the toilet bowl now. Have a nice night.
Anonymous asked: whats the name of the girl you had as your display picture before you changed it?
defectiv3-deactivated20110817 asked: SHIT I love your blog. O: <333
Anonymous asked: I'm sorry for your loss <3
Anonymous asked: I hate the people in your life. They always hurt you and you don't deserve it. I don't know how you keep moving on with your life, you are seriously something else. <3
Anonymous asked: Seeing your personal posts makes me so sad. Don't feel worthless, because I care about seeing a happy post one day.
You don't have to reply to this. I just wanted you to know.
You don't have to reply to this. I just wanted you to know.
Anonymous asked: Are you okay? :(
Anonymous asked: You know that moment when you first wake up? That minute you're eyes are open, but you could easily fall back into sleep. Your brain isn't even really awake yet. You forget how much you're craving a cigarette. You don't think about all the people who have left, how utterly lonely you are. You don't even remember how miserable you are, that you hate yourself. That is your...
luxxus asked: omg. my itunes is using sex bomb as a pick up line to yours
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Day 23- Someone you've drifted away from.
I drift away from everyone eventually. Most often there isn’t even a reason for it, it just happens. I am really terrible at committing to a friendship or a relationship. I don’t like attachment because it makes me feel like a caged bird. I try to stay far away from attachment so that I can move around the place without having to give anything up or lose anyone really important to me....
Anonymous asked: Can you post a picture of what you are doing right this second?
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Day 22- The person you know who is going through...
Your life hasn’t been easy, has it? Your brother, killed himself a week before your Birthday, years later you married and had children with a monster of a man, your daughter was sexually assaulted and developed severe depressive illnesses, developed a drug addiction and tried to commit suicide on multiple occasions, your son took to drugs and crime, developed depression and anxiety and is in...
Anonymous asked: You're not writing much right now.. what's on your mind? I'm dying to hear what's going on with you. I live for your writing.
Anonymous asked: You're the best! I'll tell her now
Anonymous asked: How am I gonna tell Kimberly to date you if I dont know your name?! :(
Anonymous asked: Whats your name?
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I hear everything more clearly the morning after. Even though my mind and body are scattered, everything becomes louder. I can hear the cigarette burning through the paper and feel a small pleasure as I inhale. The sun is out, the sky is blue and these things really should make me happy. But no, I feel used and abused. A night of pleasure, a morning of anxiety.
Anonymous asked: You're so pretty!
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Day 21- The person/people who gave you your best...
Casey & Lauren, I met you two 4 years ago at a concert and we’ve been friends since. Thank you so much for taking me to Sydney with you, I can honestly say that was the first time in 2 years that I have been genuinely happy, even if it was only for a few hours. You’re both so good to me, I wish I saw more of you.
Anonymous asked: I need to stop reading your letters but I can't. They're killing me.
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Day 20- Someone you want to give a second chance...
DON’T READ THIS IF YOU ARE FAINT OF HEART.
All those many months ago, you managed to gain my trust, you were able to get me to let my walls down and let you in. This was the first time I had been able to do this since my ex-boyfriend. You told me it would be different this time, that you would take care of me and that everything would be okay. I had just been approved by the Court to visit...
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Day 19- The person you wish you could be.
I know you’ve been hurt countless times in your life and because of this, you find it hard to trust, to love and to let down your walls, but at some point, Emily, you’re going to have to take that risk again. The root of your depression is fear, Emily. Fear of rejection from family, from friends, from lovers. You’re going to have to change your thinking about this, and tell...
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Day 18- The one that broke your heart the hardest.
This isn’t about romantic heartbreak, this is far more painful. This is the pain of being woken up at 4am to find out that someone you love is in hospital from trying to hang themselves. Andrew, I will never recover from that. I have never cried so hard before and my heart will never be the same again. Andrew, do you remember what you said to me when I overdosed? You looked me straight in...
Anonymous asked: I recommended you for tumblr tuesday because I love your blog so much. <3
Anonymous asked: 5 things about you?
Anonymous asked: There are so many like tumblr couples.. are you in a tumblr kind of relationship with anyone?
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This is more than I wanted, take me out of the dark I roam in. Cold and black you are out of touch here. Lightly falling you whisper you’re scared. It’s the weight of the world I know, as I struggle to be whole. It’s the weight of the world I know, as you are mine and we will find. This is stranger than love or loss. Turning back words you face the dawning, no excuse for a wasted...
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WatchReplies to the anonymous questions.
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Day 17- The person you miss the most.
As I’m writing these letters, I always write to the person that pops into my head first when I’ve read who the letter is to be written to. I hate that you were the first person to come to mind for this one. How could I miss you? You were never there when I was a child, you weren’t there when I started high school, you weren’t there when I was assaulted, or when the kids...
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Day 16- Someone that's not in your state/country.
I adore you, Harry Alexander Meyer. You are my rock. I know I can lean on you forever. You’re so good to me and I know that I can be so incredibly stubborn sometimes and refuse to show you some appreciation for your efforts, but I really am thankful. For everything. I’m so glad you found me all those months ago. I can’t wait to meet you in person next week, I’m really...
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Day 15— Someone from your childhood.
Denise, I don’t if you would remember me, or if you would remember anything at all.. do a persons memories last beyond the grave? I was only little and you were quite old when we met. You used to let me hold sparklers in your back garden. Watching those little sparks flickering always made me laugh. One day, my Mum and I were walking to your house with a bottle of milk for you. I fell over...
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Day 14 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as...
We have an understanding between us. We know how each other’s mind works, so there’s never a need for long, gruelling explanations of how each of us is feeling. I am in love with the idea of you, and you know this. You know what I mean by this and you are the only person who will ever know why I feel like this. You know so many things about me that no one else will ever know and the...
Anonymous asked: This is weird but were you -illuminated before?
Anonymous asked: Oh na na, what's your name?
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Day 13- Someone you wish could forgive you.
We were such good friends. I was the only girl on the planet not related to you that you trusted. I fucked it up.
I was so incredibly blind, Mike. I had been mixing my medication with my alcohol and I’d had enough to no longer know who I was or what I was doing. I saw Rob, and I spoke to him because I knew he was your best friend. You had just moved and I was missing you, talking to him...
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Day 12- The last person you kissed.
Everytime I close my eyes and kiss you, I am taken back to the sirens, the blue and red flashing lights of the ambulance, the sounds of the hospital, the nurses with the needles, the pain from the overdose and the cold, bland walls of my room in the psychiatric ward. Although every kiss is a reminder of the pain you caused me, I don’t stop. I guess you could call me masochistic.
Anonymous asked: Ok that was a bit harsh. I'm sorry. Goodbye <3
Anonymous asked: Nothing is ever fine. I thought you of all people would know that, yeah?
Anonymous asked: I just can't do it. I actually can't. I have clicked and unclicked the button like 20 times.
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Anonymous asked: I'm already terrified you'll figure me out, so be thankful you got that.